The story of my first kiss is a story that makes me smile everytime ♡ It was in an october afternoon when me and my love went out to barnes and noble. It wasn’t an ordinary afternoon though. it was an afternoon that changed my life and I reunited with my future boyfriend c’: I had not seen him since junior year and it had been a while. i was super nervous that I literally stood there shaking under a roof for a minute (it was raining) after I had left the house because I was filled so much nervousness.
I had a crush on him in high school so you can probably imagine how nervous I was. I finally found the strength to force my legs forward. When i saw him I almost froze c: When we arrived to barnes and noble I was so nervous that I couldn’t take my hand of the seatbelt strap. That’s when my love tried to kiss me but I didn’t have the courage and i moved my head :c That was so stupid of me…If i could go back I would have undone my seatbelt, put my arms around his neck, and kissed him ;3 but I was so nervous back then.
When we were at barnes and noble I loved it. I loved his presence and I felt this inner happiness in me ♡ but I hid it because I was just so nervous. When he dropped me off he kissed me C’: it was such an amazing and such a sweet moment!! It was a second long but in that second I fell for him completely. I knew I had to have him but I was just so scared of getting hurt and falling in love. I had been called names before by other people and that hurt. Let’s just say I had such a low self esteem (it partly crumbled in freshman and sophomore year) and I didn’t understand why anyone would like me more than a friend.
Putting walls around you is not good though, you will lose the greatest people in life. So anyone out there (if you’re reading this, please don’t put walls around you.)
After the kiss I was so shy but soo happy ♡ I went home and my happiness was just overflowing everywhere. I came home smiling and it was just amazing. My love texted me and apologized for kissing me surprisingly but I didn’t understand why he was apologizing. I loved it. Around 2 weeks later, I told myself to get out of my little bubble and break those walls. i was only pushing my love away from me and it broke my heart. why was I doing that? I loved him. I was just hurting us both. So one night in that same october month, he asked me if he could visit and i said yes. I ran out and I told him he could kiss me again. And so he did c’: That’s when we decided that that was our first kiss ♡ it was amazing again. While I kissed him he put his hands on my waist and me on his chest. I wanted to kiss him forever.
Ever since the first day i saw my love I knew we would end up together ;3
Now in October of last year we became girlfriend and boyfriend ♡ We will have 8 months of being gf and bf on the 27th C’: We complete each other and we love each other to death ♡ My happiness is his happiness.
I love you babe!! ♡
And that is the story of my first kiss C’: Eli love is the first and only person I will ever kiss ♡
-get a job!! :3
-go to driving school
-get an iPhone/galaxy
-workout with my love ❤
-go shopping with my love c:
-look for a car
-enjoy summer with my love :3
why does our period have to last an entire week like seriously after an hour i know i’m not pregnant let’s move on now pls this is unnecessary
I could not have asked for a better boyfriend c’: he is the man of my dreams ❤ my sun! I am the happiest girl ever :3
I love that strong hold of him, his kisses (from soft to rough), how he pulls me to him, his hand on mine, and absolutely everything about him! I had a really nice day yesterday with him and his family for his cousin’s confirmation :3 they’re all so nice and loving!
Next week we are going shopping to the mall-so fun ahh!!
Muuah! I love you sweetheart! Soo much!!❤
“you shouldn’t be depressed, people have it worse than you”
finally, after years of searching, the person with the worst life ever is found. formally, they are granted permission to be sad. but only them. only they have earned it. no sads for anyone else at all ever
At the end of level 1 nursing school I ended up making different friends :3 and its funny how most of them were outside of the classes I had and even from other programs like the respiratory and radiology program. Going to my classes in the elevator random people started making conversations with me. And in other classes or during breaks they would talk to me as if they have known me for a while. I started to talk to them more.
In the classes I was in most of the students were kinda mean.
hopefully next semester I get classes with the friendly people ^.^
They would all go in a group but I would just go sit with other students when we had lecture with all morning skills classes. I was honestly more comfortable with other students who I got to meet.
Sometimes you just have to go your own way to find where you belong.