this life is sad. Going through nursing and seeing people suffer makes me want to cry to be honest. i wish I could stop all of their pain. Especially those with cancer. two weeks ago I was the student nurse of a patient with cancer. She was crying of the pain that not even dilaudid which is stronger than morphine would stop her pain and calling out to God. If I ever get sick all i ask is to not get sick with a disease where the pain is unbearable. Or a disease like alzheimers where I would forget who I was or my family.
Yesterday we were watching a video in class about alzheimers and it made me wanna cry. the stories were so sad.
I want to make a difference.
The class being hectic has not gotten better but I’m determined to pass all of my upcoming exam! :l last Wednesday for clinicals I was at the operation room where I saw three surgeries. It wasnt as bad as I thought. Tommorow I have preclinicals in the afternoon and clinicals on Wednesday with a patient!
As for skills, I passed my physical exam and today I passed my IV insertion so yay!! :3
Tommorow I have a math quiz and pharm quiz so we’ll see how tjat goes and also a simulation!! Ahhh!!
6 more weeks!!
So far I have felt really tired with med surg, skills 2, virtual/sims and now clinical to add on top of all that mess ;-; I passed my physical check off with a 96 which I was so happy about c,: tommorow I have an IV math quiz and I hope I get a passing grade, fingers crossed!
7 more wks!
"I have never yearned for anything as much as I have yearned for your love" <3
Yesterday was completely amazing because it was me and my love’s 1 year anniversary!! He makes me the happiest girl ever c,: the need for true love was unknown to me, until the moment he walked into my life. Suddenly it was like everything ignited. I felt <3 and now he has me on fire for him. I am very lucky to have such an amazing and sweet boyfriend.
I remember being numb before. I guess I didnt feel much. But now everything is completely different. I am happy and my life is now complete <33
We had such an amazing day yesterday :3 we went out for lunch to olive garden which was very delicious!! Plus we got a very good deal P: we also went to Barnes and noble where we spent part of the afternoon there relaxing, reading books, and also practicing for my check off today :3
Outfits for this fall?
I’m going to miss mental health ;-; it has been the most relaxing class with the best instructor ever c,: with tuesdays and thursdays off…now I will only have Thursdays off but I should be happy it’s something.
Tommorow I begin medical surgical ans nursing skills 2. I have got to say I’m a little excited to start learning about diseases but then again I hear it’s a hard class. God please help me ;-; I cannot afford to fail a single class this semester or next semester. My dad had to pay for my classes and I cannot throw that money down the drain plus I wanna graduate asap! >.<
Wish me luck >.> the class is only for the remainder of the semester…I can do this, no tears, no stress. No failing tests!!!!