The story of my first kiss is a story  that makes me smile everytime ♡ It was in an october afternoon when me and my love went out to barnes and noble. It wasn’t an ordinary afternoon though. it was an afternoon that changed my life and I reunited with my future boyfriend c’: I had not seen him since junior year and it had been a while. i was super nervous that I literally stood there shaking under a roof for a minute (it was raining) after I had left the house because I was filled so much nervousness.

I had a crush on him in high school so you can probably imagine how nervous I was. I finally found the strength to force my legs forward. When i saw him I almost froze c: When we arrived to barnes and noble I was so nervous that I couldn’t take my hand of the seatbelt strap. That’s when my love tried to kiss me but I didn’t have the courage and i moved my head :c That was so stupid of me…If i could go back I would have undone my seatbelt, put my arms around his neck, and kissed him ;3 but I was so nervous back then.

When we were at barnes and noble I loved it. I loved his presence and I felt this inner happiness in me ♡ but I hid it because I was just so nervous. When he dropped me off he kissed me C’: it was such an amazing and such a sweet moment!! It was a second long but in that second I fell for him completely. I knew I had to have him but I was just so scared of getting hurt and falling in love. I had been called names before by other people and that hurt. Let’s just say I had such a low self esteem (it partly crumbled in freshman and sophomore year) and I didn’t understand why anyone would like me more than a friend.

Putting walls around you is not good though, you will lose the greatest people in life. So anyone out there (if you’re reading this, please don’t put walls around you.)

After the kiss I was so shy but soo happy ♡ I went home and my happiness was just overflowing everywhere. I came home smiling and it was just amazing. My love texted me and apologized for kissing me surprisingly but I didn’t understand why he was apologizing. I loved it. Around 2 weeks later, I told myself to get out of my little bubble and break those walls. i was only pushing my love away from me and it broke my heart. why was I doing that? I loved him. I was just hurting us both. So one night in that same october month, he asked me if he could visit and i said yes. I ran out and I told him he could kiss me again. And so he did c’: That’s when we decided that that was our first kiss ♡ it was amazing again. While I kissed him he put his hands on my waist and me on his chest. I wanted to kiss him forever.

Ever since the first day i saw my love I knew we would end up together ;3

Now in October of last year we became girlfriend and boyfriend ♡ We will have 8 months of being gf and bf on the 27th C’: We complete each other and we love each other to death ♡ My happiness is his happiness.

I love you babe!! ♡

And that is the story of my first kiss C’: Eli love is the first and only person I will ever kiss ♡

-get a job!! :3 
-go to driving school
-get an iPhone/galaxy
-workout with my love ❤
-go shopping with my love c:
-look for a car
-enjoy summer with my love :3

I could not have asked for a better boyfriend c’: he is the man of my dreams ❤ my sun! I am the happiest girl ever :3

I love that strong hold of him, his kisses (from soft to rough), how he pulls me to him, his hand on mine, and absolutely everything about him! I had a really nice day yesterday with him and his family for his cousin’s confirmation :3 they’re all so nice and loving!

Next week we are going shopping to the mall-so fun ahh!!
Muuah! I love you sweetheart! Soo much!!❤

At the end of level 1 nursing school I ended up making different friends :3 and its funny how most of them were outside of the classes I had and even from other programs like the respiratory and radiology program. Going to my classes in the elevator random people started making conversations with me. And in other classes or during breaks they would talk to me as if they have known me for a while. I started to talk to them more.

In the classes I was in most of the students were kinda mean.
hopefully next semester I get classes with the friendly people ^.^
They would all go in a group but I would just go sit with other students when we had lecture with all morning skills classes. I was honestly more comfortable with other students who I got to meet.

Sometimes you just have to go your own way to find where you belong.

I’m very nervous..

I passed to level 2 (and I am soo happy because that was the number 1 thing to worry about) but..I don’t know if I passed pharmacology :c
I feel okay about the exam and also, the ones I had a doubt in. I looked them up (some) and I chose the correct answer. You never know though, sometimes you think you did good and you didn’t and vice versa.

I will know tonight :c

Tomorrow :’o pass or fail?
I’ll find out tomorrow but I have to pass! :l

Lord: I know we go through this every day but please give me the knowledge as to why I actually wanted to go to nursing school. Give me the strength to make it through those boring three hour lectures without falling asleep. Please give me the patience to make it through eight hour clinicals with instructors that can’t just give you the right answer and on the same note, give the nurses the ability to remember what it was like to be a student and give us just a little more respect. Give me the endurance to read all the assigned readings and be able to remember it when I am taking a test with four right answers. Give my family and friends the ability to realize I really am on the edge of insanity. Finally, give me the vision to see that one day I will be a real nurse and I will never have to wear this boring uniform again.

class is almost over and I have to say I’m happy so far :3 I am passing 3 of my clasaes and the 4th one (pharmacology) I’m borderline with a 77.41. With the final I know I can boost it up!! No stress allowed though.

I will pass.

Me and my boyfriend have lots of plans for this summer! <3

We are going shopping, going to iron man (plus many more movies!), more shopping, working out at the gym, and lots of other plans :3 plus I want to get a job and a car (finally!!)
I’m so excited!! my love’s finals are this week and mine are next week but we’re close to summer!! ahh!! <3

And me and my love are turning 20 this summer because we’re summer babies and wooo 20 year olds!! <3

When you run across your nursing professor and he rolls his eyes at you.

That was the rudest thing ever. I smiled like anyone would to another friendly stranger and he rolls his eyes at me…

This is one thing I don’t like about nursing school and the class group of 10 I got assigned to. Everyone except 4 persons are truly nice. The rest can be so rude. In foundations class two of the girls (the rude ones) are always making fun of anything the other people say.

I wish I was assigned to another group. But it’s okay because I ignore them all. It’s not like they affect me but I just think it’s rude. Why want to be a nurse if you’re going to be rude?

Omg :3

the most sweetest boy asked me to be his girlfriend❤ the boy who changed my life! (: I am so happy I met the boy I had been searching for. Ever since I was kid I dreamed of the perfect most sweetest boy and eli came right and fit perfectly on that missing piece :-* he is all my eyes see and all my heart beats for ❤ he makes my every day amazing and full of happiness :3 he is perfect (and yes no one is perfect in this world) but he is perfect for me and perfect to me. He is my everything and I love him sooo muchh!! ❤ These 6 months have been amazing and the happiest!! :3 
I’m so lucky to have you love!! ❤Muuah!!

It’s official! we’re engaged C’: